There are people who speak from the truth and others who speak from the truth. I am from the first ones. I write from the road, from my own search and what moves me is love, the desire to share with you the things I am discovering. How I wish there was an easy way to make others see how beautiful the path to freedom is and that it is worth every minute, every ounce of energy you invest in it.
I know very well that most of the people who read this material will put it in a corner and tie themselves back up to continue spinning on the Ferris wheel of their lives. There are many excuses: "If I did or didn't do something, it wouldn't achieve anything", "It has always been like this and it will never change", "He's crazy, you can't go against the current", "It can't be that we are all wrong."
The cancer of this society, my love, is indifference. What starves people, what tolerates wars, what wipes out nature, what allows some priests to sexually abuse children, is our indifference and apathy. There is no other way, the world is in shit but only some of us want to do something about it.
It is easy for others to manipulate us because freedom implies great responsibility. It is much easier to follow others, obey and put all our power on the outside. Everything is to blame for what goes wrong in our lives except us. The concept of god has become a crutch and a perfect excuse to make fools of ourselves and not accept responsibility for anything!
It is easy for them to manipulate us also because they have us totally idiotic. When you wake up a little bit, you realize the crazy things we commit by following their game and you don't believe it: We drive drunk and with our families in the car, we smoke near our little children and we do that to them, we smoke to them, we undergo liposuction or plastic surgeries we don't need, we martyr and kill animals for fun, we pray the rosary and then we cheat our customers or put down the maid. The list is endless.
It is not about whether it is good or bad, those are also creations of our mind. It is not about whether it is a sin or not, that is another powerful weapon of manipulation. It's not about telling you what to do or even implying that it's important. What I do believe is that it would be a real shame to waste the opportunity that is your life.
It would be a pity for you to leave this wonderful life without knowing what true happiness, joy and real enjoyment is. That you settle for the substitutes they give you: alcohol, possessions, promiscuity. These pleasures last so little and they all give you hangovers, you end up feeling worse and emptier.
It would be a little sad to know that you were an emperor, an inexhaustible source of love but that you lived like a beggar who betrayed himself and abandoned himself for fear of loneliness; that he filled his relationships with conflicts because he thought he needed the other person and had to control him.
It would be a bit ridiculous to realize at the end of your life that you were praying to and fearing a god invented by others while inside you was direct communication with the divine. Find out that you never needed intermediaries or representatives.
It would be a little silly for you to live for everyone but yourself. That shame and what they will say prevent you from dancing freely, singing when you are happy, enjoying your sexuality without feeling like a sinner, showing your feelings and your vulnerability without fear of rejection by people.
It would be a shame to discover on your deathbed that you were very good, very obedient, very respectable, but that the price was belonging to the crowd, never raising your voice and shouting “I disagree”.
How hard it would be if before you died you admitted that you were a mediocre doctor or a bitter graduate just because you lacked the balls to be a wonderful adventurer or a happy dancer.
It would be a little awkward to admit on your golden wedding anniversary that you didn't love your husband for fifty years but put up with him all that time out of fear of being held responsible, because of what the family would say, or because that's what you were supposed to do.
And what if on your eighty-fifth birthday you realize that what guided your steps was fear, distrust, the illusion of controlling everything and not love as it could have been.
Anyway, I would love to tell you that there is a magic formula to wake up and be free. How nice it would be to tell you that with a soap, a book, a phone call, or a three-day course you could discover all that.
There's no such thing. If you see some truth in what I am telling you here, you can start by admitting that your life, as it is organized now, does not make sense. That a change in you implies a change of path, customs and beliefs. It involves a discipline of constant self-observation and a commitment to come back to yourself again and again.
My love, open your eyes. Stop swallowing everything they tell you, realize that you are free to make your own decisions without giving explanations to anyone, that you are the only and true master of yourself. Sound arrogant to you? It is not at all, arrogant is blaming others for everything you do.
Admit that you cannot be better, nor do you need to be. Maybe there are some things you can do differently but they have nothing to do with your worth as a person.
Be selfish. Love yourself, love yourself, love yourself. Don't try to keep giving what you don't have. Fill yourself with love for yourself and then giving it to others will be the logical consequence. Focus on your well-being, on your prosperity, on your interests and then, when you are wonderful, you will want to share everything with others, you will not be able to avoid it.
Shut your mouth. Stop complaining, judging, criticizing, giving opinions and promising. Stop telling everyone what you're going to do and do it! Your actions speak much louder than all your words.
Stop chasing happiness or success. There is no set of external situations or achievements that will finally make you feel good. Happiness and success are not goals to achieve, they are paths to follow. They are an attitude towards life that you can have right now. If you can't be happy now, the way your life is, you'll never be.
Surrender. You're going to die anyway. It doesn't matter how scared you are, or how many crazy explanations you accept. The truth is that we know nothing of after death. If there's something later, we'll talk there, because doing it here is a waste of time.
Stop fighting with life, stop asking for so many things you don't need, stop trying to impose your will on existence. Things are as they are, life is as it is, not as you want it to be. Life doesn't care about your opinion. However, if you accept, you will lack nothing, you will be fine no matter what. Whatever happens!
Be vulnerable. Be brave enough to admit that you're scared to death. Man enough to let you cry, woman enough to show your strength, Show yourself to others, you will notice that, seeing your true face, they will have no choice but to love you.
Relax, you don't need to do anything to be loved. Yes there is enough love for you and for everything that exists in the universe.
And finally, rebel! Stop believing what they said about you. It is not true that you are good for nothing, nor useless, you are not a sheep nor were you born tainted by any sin. Don't play along with those who don't want you to grow up, who want you to be a helpless little boy who eats from their hand.
Raise your voice and shout:
Enough! I am an emperor, a buddha, a child of life, a guest of the unknown; I am the light, the truth and the life!
Raise your voice and shout:
And, I am the master of myself!